3:32am Questions

Everyone has 'em. You sit there, you lay there, you toss back and forth, switch up the pillows, take one leg out from under the covers...but nothing fucking works because all you need is answers. Answers to the questions that you ask yourself every time you can't sleep. I love my sleep, can't get enough of it, so why do these questions creep into my mind right on the brink of sleepiness. Call it bedtime karma. It's God and all the bitter spirits giving me a time-out for all the shit I didn't do and was perfectly capable of doing during the day.

Question #1) Why can't I find someone semi-normal to have a semi-relationship with and why does it always have to be so complicated. Love isn't complicated people, it's really not: I like you and you like me bam lets make sweet fuckin love and put all of our hatred for the world into good sex with someone you can have the best conversations of your life with in the morning, then grab a good meal catch a movie or a game and do it all over again the next day....not super challenging.

Question #2) How do some people have life so perfectly mapped? I don't, and it haunts me at night which is the point of this too-late post considering I have too-early class in the morning. Some people know what they want to name their hypothetical children, I have a hard enough time trying to decide what to make myself for dinner.

Question #3) Why are movies so predictable? Every romantic comedy is the same. Girl likes dude, dude fucks girl over, girl decides to move on, dude realizes he's being a colossal jerk, dude begs for forgiveness, girl cries and then boom, sudden happy ending. There are enough creative writers in this world to change shit up jussssst a little.

Question #4) Do crickets chirp all night long or do they ever get tired and take five during the night because this is the only sound I can focus on right now.

I miss being ten and having a magic eight ball solve my problems.